Hot Lunch!
Jun. 11th, 2002 01:05 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
jlhTwo things happened last night that now bring me back to this subject of "fame." First, ![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
eccentricfemme asked me when ballyharnon was getting back from Ireland (as we are all eagerly awaiting the next part of Of Silver) and I replied, "20th, said the fangirl." Second, a pal pointed out angiej's recent post about FA inner circles.
If I didn't already think that Slytherin Goddess rocked, I do now. She was spot on. I mean, you have three people, and you probably have an inner circle. And I, for one, don't think there's a single thing wrong with that. We ALL have buddies at the park. Some social scientist would have a field day (and rather a good dissertation) mapping the internal relationships over there. When I hop online, I buzz around to see who's on--don't we all? There are writers that I admire, whom I review and whose posts I'm happy to read. Does that make me an atrocious fangirl? For all my usual anxiety about these things, I have to say, no. If you don't like it, make your own damn circle. But at least be honest about it.
I'm not entirely sure why this issue keeps coming up in one way or another. There's the anxiety over being a fangirl that leads to rather over-edited reviews. There's the surprise that people are talking about a gathering place that some FA friends and I have started. There's the management of the GG fic (I've got next, watch for the transition). And there's how to handle that people are actually reading and reviewing my story.
I remember being new to the Park. Not that I'm some old salt, but what I do recall is lurking for about six weeks before my first post. And then being ridiculously excited when someone posted after me and quoted me, whether in agreement or not (come to think of it, that was dear femme). And then being ridiculously excited when someone I knew from their writing or their posts quoted me, whether in agreement or not. I can give this as an example because I now think of him as a pal, but whenjohnwalton first referred to me as "the lovely jlh" I think I went sqeeeeeee for 30 minutes.
And now, I'm reading as much as I can, and writing when it suits me. The writing has brought it all into focus. I'm an alpha and a beta reader, a reviewer and a writer, a fan and a muse. The ships feel like a community of like-minded writers, especially the Seamus/Dean ship. Some buddies of mine and I have started our own Y!Group. And all this happened over just six months.
And so, in the end, I circle back to what Ebony said in the first place, though perhaps rather more gentle in tone. If you want to belong, get involved. That's what we did.
Oh, and I don't think I've thankedfiatincantatum enough for the code! If not for her, no nocturne alley for me! Speaking of which, I have to agree with vanityfair—all of Siri and Remi's talk of their own sex lives is a bit declasse, to say the least.
--jen
eccentricfemme asked me when ballyharnon was getting back from Ireland (as we are all eagerly awaiting the next part of Of Silver) and I replied, "20th, said the fangirl." Second, a pal pointed out angiej's recent post about FA inner circles.If I didn't already think that Slytherin Goddess rocked, I do now. She was spot on. I mean, you have three people, and you probably have an inner circle. And I, for one, don't think there's a single thing wrong with that. We ALL have buddies at the park. Some social scientist would have a field day (and rather a good dissertation) mapping the internal relationships over there. When I hop online, I buzz around to see who's on--don't we all? There are writers that I admire, whom I review and whose posts I'm happy to read. Does that make me an atrocious fangirl? For all my usual anxiety about these things, I have to say, no. If you don't like it, make your own damn circle. But at least be honest about it.
I'm not entirely sure why this issue keeps coming up in one way or another. There's the anxiety over being a fangirl that leads to rather over-edited reviews. There's the surprise that people are talking about a gathering place that some FA friends and I have started. There's the management of the GG fic (I've got next, watch for the transition). And there's how to handle that people are actually reading and reviewing my story.
I remember being new to the Park. Not that I'm some old salt, but what I do recall is lurking for about six weeks before my first post. And then being ridiculously excited when someone posted after me and quoted me, whether in agreement or not (come to think of it, that was dear femme). And then being ridiculously excited when someone I knew from their writing or their posts quoted me, whether in agreement or not. I can give this as an example because I now think of him as a pal, but when
johnwalton first referred to me as "the lovely jlh" I think I went sqeeeeeee for 30 minutes. And now, I'm reading as much as I can, and writing when it suits me. The writing has brought it all into focus. I'm an alpha and a beta reader, a reviewer and a writer, a fan and a muse. The ships feel like a community of like-minded writers, especially the Seamus/Dean ship. Some buddies of mine and I have started our own Y!Group. And all this happened over just six months.
And so, in the end, I circle back to what Ebony said in the first place, though perhaps rather more gentle in tone. If you want to belong, get involved. That's what we did.
Oh, and I don't think I've thanked
fiatincantatum enough for the code! If not for her, no nocturne alley for me! Speaking of which, I have to agree with vanityfair—all of Siri and Remi's talk of their own sex lives is a bit declasse, to say the least.--jen
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Date: 2002-06-11 11:00 pm (UTC)I say: For me, this isn't true. I had a large, caring group of friends at high school (15 of us) and even the group who thought they were the 'elites' envied our closeness (and I know because they said so, much to our astonishment).
Even at Uni, I was fortunate to find a group of genuine, down-to-earth people who were a lot of fun. Once I hit the workforce, I belonged to the 'professional' or 'managerial' inner circle.
For nearly 20 years now, I've had people hating me for my good fortune to make good friends and belong to a 'group'. Their criticism is based on jealousy but tries to pass itself off as something legitimate.
You know, I'm a little tired of feeling as though I should apologise for having a group of friends. I'm also tired of people trying to stick the knife in at work because I have my own office and other small privledges. What's stopping them from going to Uni and getting a degree, if they want to? And what's stopping people from making their own group of friends too?
As you can see, this is a sensitive issue for me.