I stayed home today to get things done. I wanted to work on the SBRL FQF fic. I wanted to work on the sequel. Instead, I did fuck-all except wash dishes. I RP'd, so I suppose that was good. *sigh* Must crack the whip tomorrow, then.
Oh, god, here's where I start to get knots in my stomach again, and feel that sort of helplessness. I listen to Harry screaming and yelling at Ron and Hermione and I think, man, it is not going to get any better, either. His shouting should feel like a release, but it just doesn't—not to the reader and not to Harry. That overwhelming sense of anger and frustration--and Ron and Hermione just standing there and taking it, and not knowing what to do, and not having any idea in the world what he's actually talking about. When Harry was younger, he gravitated toward those with families because he wanted one himself, but now I think he feels a little distant from all those Weasleys who, at the end of the day, still have each other. And at this point, I doubt he thinks he really has anyone except Sirius.
And he's beginning to realize how much he doesn't have Dumbledore, how everyone else just does as he says because he's Dumbledore, and Harry? Harry isn't liking that much, isn't liking how willing they all are to trust Dumbledore and not him, to throw him to whatever fate he faces at 4 Privet Drive and be too concerned because hey, Dumbledore asked them to. That's a lot of power for one man, to keep a mother hen like Molly and a guard dog like Sirius from getting to Harry.
Fred and George, sort of inappropriately dismissing Harry. I'm sure they think it's funny but I . . . just . . . don't.
Interesting that Percy, like some Soviet Apparatchik, has decided that his loyalty lies with the Ministry. Not his family, not Dumbledore, not even a particular boss, but the machine itself. I suppose that means that he'll swing with the Ministry in book 6, but what is he truly up to? Banality of evil indeed. I also see some vague parallel to Kreacher, to Snape—someone who feels that they weren't treated well and thinks this fact justifies all their later actions. Note that Harry may rail and get angry, but he won't go that far. (I hope.)
Right, so. Ginny. Wow. You know, I had always said that you see a flash of Ginny in GoF, in The Unexpected Task, and I was right. She knows how to get away with things, how to take advantage of her mother, she lies with a straight face, and please, she made a noise like an angry cat. This girl is really cool. Okay, so she's essentially a third twin at this point, but she's still young. Hurrah for JKR.
And no, no shippiness. None. He's far too pissed off.
And then when Harry is ready to descend into complete and total confusion, and Tonks causes cacophony in the hall, who comes flying in to put an angry end to it?
Sirius.
Oh, god, here's where I start to get knots in my stomach again, and feel that sort of helplessness. I listen to Harry screaming and yelling at Ron and Hermione and I think, man, it is not going to get any better, either. His shouting should feel like a release, but it just doesn't—not to the reader and not to Harry. That overwhelming sense of anger and frustration--and Ron and Hermione just standing there and taking it, and not knowing what to do, and not having any idea in the world what he's actually talking about. When Harry was younger, he gravitated toward those with families because he wanted one himself, but now I think he feels a little distant from all those Weasleys who, at the end of the day, still have each other. And at this point, I doubt he thinks he really has anyone except Sirius.
And he's beginning to realize how much he doesn't have Dumbledore, how everyone else just does as he says because he's Dumbledore, and Harry? Harry isn't liking that much, isn't liking how willing they all are to trust Dumbledore and not him, to throw him to whatever fate he faces at 4 Privet Drive and be too concerned because hey, Dumbledore asked them to. That's a lot of power for one man, to keep a mother hen like Molly and a guard dog like Sirius from getting to Harry.
Fred and George, sort of inappropriately dismissing Harry. I'm sure they think it's funny but I . . . just . . . don't.
Interesting that Percy, like some Soviet Apparatchik, has decided that his loyalty lies with the Ministry. Not his family, not Dumbledore, not even a particular boss, but the machine itself. I suppose that means that he'll swing with the Ministry in book 6, but what is he truly up to? Banality of evil indeed. I also see some vague parallel to Kreacher, to Snape—someone who feels that they weren't treated well and thinks this fact justifies all their later actions. Note that Harry may rail and get angry, but he won't go that far. (I hope.)
Right, so. Ginny. Wow. You know, I had always said that you see a flash of Ginny in GoF, in The Unexpected Task, and I was right. She knows how to get away with things, how to take advantage of her mother, she lies with a straight face, and please, she made a noise like an angry cat. This girl is really cool. Okay, so she's essentially a third twin at this point, but she's still young. Hurrah for JKR.
And no, no shippiness. None. He's far too pissed off.
And then when Harry is ready to descend into complete and total confusion, and Tonks causes cacophony in the hall, who comes flying in to put an angry end to it?
Sirius.
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Date: 2003-06-28 05:05 pm (UTC)I didn't think it was funny but I thought it was pretty called for. They's kind of like the sort of people who go, "Woah, drama queen much?" and make drama queen stop and rethink their actions or something. Well, they definitely handled Harry better than Ron and Hermione could.
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Date: 2003-06-28 05:14 pm (UTC)Re:
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Date: 2003-06-28 05:45 pm (UTC)But there is something to be said for Ron and Hermione's complete inability to comprehend his situation. All they do when he arrives is say, hurrah! you're here! and then they're on to the next thing. They've sent him endless letters about all this work they're doing—which turns out to just be cleaning the house, and seems needlessly tantilizing to write in a letter—and now he's there, and they say, oh, right, I'm sure you're frustrated. And he's well past that, and they just don't see it, because they need him to keep sucking it up, too. I just don't sense that they are all that concerned for him or his feelings or his situation or are very empathetic to him, at that moment, and since they're all he has, I think he has a right to be angry at them as well.
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Date: 2003-06-28 06:04 pm (UTC)As for the letters they sent Harry, <a href="http://www.livejournal.com/users/altricial/231631.html?thread=2212047>this</a> is what I thought of it. I thought of c/ping everything here but it's going to take up like 4 comments, haha. :D
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Date: 2003-06-28 06:05 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2003-06-30 03:48 am (UTC)Well, as you might imagine, I think I'm landing much closer to Rach than to you here. But what a great debate! Thanks for linking!
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