Random Thoughts

[jlh]

It's nice to see, in this day and age, that graciousness and gratitude still exist. Warms my heart, it does.


Things I am envious of this week include:

1-Everyone with a partner and a child. I know, it's dorky, but there it is. My three college roommates are all married with children or trying to get pregnant. In fact, almost everyone I know who is my age has a family. I don't even have a family of origin, much less one of my own. I'm no where near getting there, and I'm beginning to really think it just isn't going to happen. So here I am, having backed into exactly the life I never quite wanted to have. I always wanted to be a stay-at-home mom, but that wasn't a very PC goal for a Cliffie. So yeah, listening to Heidi talk about her renovations makes me pretty damn green. CC just makes fun of me for it, though.

2-Everyone nominated for an award. Yes, it's yet another opportunity for me to be petty about being eligible for something and knowing that I won't even be considered. Kinda takes the steam out of the sequel. Though, I did have a bit of it in my head today, hence the icon.

3-Everyone wandering off to another fandom. I'm not the fandom type; HP is my one and only. But I'm getting the feeling that everyone is going to sort of float away and it will be, "Clio, can you turn the lights out when you leave?"

I am not envious of people who have a job that they love. I used to love this job. I don't anymore, but I am doing things to get one that I will, and I know that will happen.


In other news, I am doing pretty well on my pledge to not give advice anymore. It's really helping my attitude, a ton.

Comments

[misscora.livejournal.com]

Don't know if it helps, but 1) I'm not going anywhere, and 2) I actually nominated you well before I found out I had been but something seems to have been messed up in the nomination and none of the people I nominated are on their list.

Also, I *heart* and *loff* and adore you, just on general principle.

[pinkfinity.livejournal.com]

: pledges to never ever leave HP for another fandom.

Yes, I will stay on the Crowded House mailing list and go to concerts if any Finn ever shows up in South Florida again, but I will never ditch HP for Xmen, Matrix, or anything else. Nope, never.

Except maybe the fandom that will spring up around the first novel by this sparkly-lipsticked writer chick I'm friends with...

[queerasjohn.livejournal.com]

*huggles you* I won't leave. I love everyone too much to leave.

And awards are in no way representative of merit. *schnoogles you lots and lots and lots*

[fiatincantatum.livejournal.com]

I wasn't planning on going anywhere either...I'll probably still be here daydreaming long after Harry Potter has become "So last decade."

[ex-lunasparr180.livejournal.com]

::hugs::

1. In my experience, life is what happens to you when you're planning something else entirely.
2. I really have no idea why EWFS hasn't been nominated when SO many people have read it and loved it. It must be just an oversight. You probably posted it at a time when there weren't award nominations happening. Besides, no-one gives a fuck about the awards TPD has won. Why? Because they really don't matter in the fandom when all is said and done.
3. I think the HP fandom will live forever frankly. I suspect there will be a huge turnover though, so the people you know and like may leave over time but the fandom itself will never die. Hey, you can set yourself up as the Yoda of the fandom if you stick around long enough. ;)

Sorry you're feeling down. ::hugs again::

[ladylisse.livejournal.com]

*hugs* I'm not going anywhere. I did my aggressive niching thing. Am too lazy and love HP too much to pack up and march off.

And I understand about the couples thing. There are couples everywhere on this damn campus. Am feeling gooshy, which is most annoying when all the guys I know seem to think I'm gay.

[evil-erato.livejournal.com]

1.) Do any of us ever really end up where we expected to be? That said, I totally get where you're coming from *hugs*

2.) Like Luna said, the awards aren't everything, and your fic did come out at a non-award type time. Don't sweat it love - people love you fic, you know that.

3.)D00d - I'm not leaving. This fandom is unlike any other I've been in, and I love it. You, me, and the rest of the people up there on your comments list will all be singing long into the night about out pure and t00by love for HP. We'll be the Old Timers :)

*hugs*

I know this post isn't going to cure your blues, but at least you know you're not alone :)

*hugs again just because*

[tobymalfoy.livejournal.com]

1 - Don't have a partner, don't expect a child either. Wouldn't say no to the first, don't see the second happen, like, ever.
2 - I don't think I've ever been nominated for an award.
3 - I may wander off, but I'm firmly rooted in the HP fandom. Watch me once the book finally arrives.

>:D<

[marysiak.livejournal.com]

1. Much hugs and general agreement here

2. No idea what awards these are as have not been paying attention, however I suspect someone would have told me had I been nominated so will sulk with you

3. I don't see myself ever truly leaving HP fandom, although I may wander through other fields, just look at me tipping back into X-Men fandom and it's been years and years on that one

[decafchai.livejournal.com]

Er, since I delurked and commented to your subsequent post, I thought I might as well delurk here and comment on #1. As someone who probably graduated within a few years of you, I can definitely relate — I often get the feeling that the entire world has moved onto some other stage of life and left me behind. Of course, it doesn't help living in New York, which I am beginning to think is some sort of time-warped cocoon completely unlike the rest of the country, a place where it's perfectly normal to be 42 and having your first baby (biological or adopted) but still having nothing in the fridge besides Chinese takeout and beer. I'm reminding myself that I'd rather be happy in my life and accomplishments than unhappily paired up (and I see all too many people hooking up with the wrong people for the wrong reasons, and many people in their 40s getting married for the first time with much stronger relationships). I don't know, I think I'd probably find something "missing" no matter what I had, as many people would — after all, coupled-up friends envy the way I can just pick up and go on vacation whenever I want, without having to coordinate and plan with another person.

If it helps, my PBK headed-for-Harvard-Law freshman year roommate confessed that what she really wanted to do was get married and quit her job and sit on the sofa watching soaps and reading Harlequin romances all day.

(Oh, and on a completely different note: I'm glad that you call yourself a Cliffie! I was afraid that the name would disappear after the merger-that-was-or-wasn't!)

[yasmina.livejournal.com]

You know, I often feel like that. Because I have one foot in the door of fandom and the other taking care of RL, I feel like I'm going to leave the door to pursue another, and come back and I'll be the only person left, or everyone else will have progressed to something new, and I'll be lagging. I swear I'm the fandom lagger, I'm always the last to read a chapter of a fic I'm following, last to hear anything about LJ trolls, last to hear anything big that's happening and always the last to comment in LJ. :D You may be the one turning the light out when you leave, but I'm going to be the one still sitting on the couch after the door is closed, going 'Who ate all the chocolate?'

Cheers,
Yasmin